These past few days weren't good AT ALL.
hated it.
i hated it.
got dismissed for listening to my ipod and knitting and reading a book.
i was like telling sonia: Should I laugh or cry?
its so ridiculous to a point that it seems kind of funny.
so oh well.
at least next time i can tell my kids that their mother
wasn't exactly an angel.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

That wasn't the only thing that troubled me.
I don't know WHY. HOW. can one person
affect me for such a long period of time.
Heck. Maybe this person still reads my blog.
It just keeps popping up on my mind that its frustrating me.
the scene at the CD shop is the worst one.
I want it to stop so badly.
Thinking back, i feel like i could have done 101 things differently.
Maybe i wasn't nice enough blah blah blah
but i know, if it isn't meant to be, it won't be.
I will never cling to somebody like that again.
He can never understand how hollow i felt
and how hard it was trying to fill it up again.
As much i dislike him for hurting me in such an abrupt manner,
i think i still love him as a friend.
Can't explain how i feel.

Reading the book of Job and i feel so ashamed!!
his plights are like 1000000000000 times worse than mine
and why the heck am i complaining?
Plus i have so many great people around me now.
I think i'm quite a happy person because of them.
and also because of my cute little fishie (my crazy kat)
who adores me so. and waits at the door for me to come home.
awwww. i miss her everytime i am away.

er hemm.
okay stopping this emo crap now.
Need to continue packing my room.
and sleep.

PARAMORE'S CONCERT TOMORROW!!!!!
YEAH BABY!!!!!!!
i wonder if i sold my standing pen ticket for $500 bucks
would some crazy paramore fan without a ticket buy it?
note: its a freakin standing pen ticket. in front of the stage.
teeeheeeheee.
ciao!